Showing posts with label identity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label identity. Show all posts

Tuesday, 5 October 2010

England, my England


I’ve been thinking quite closely about issues of national identity, issues that arose from my recent blog (This England). I recall a documentary some years ago made by one Darcus Howe, a black writer and broadcaster (his colour is relevant, as you will see), in which he explored this very question. It was called The White Tribe, a kind of cultural safari in search of England, of what it meant to be English. A great many of the people he asked, people mostly from white working class communities, could not answer his basic questions. One respondent, struggling to come up with something, eventually alighted on line dancing!

In the course of his journey he also managed to have a brief exchange with Lord Tebbit, who admitted that concepts of English identity were indeed problematic. He went on to say that his ancestors were migrants from the Low Countries, and he was glad that they had moved, otherwise he would have been born a Belgian! Then their discussion moved on to Englishness and Britishness. Howe was told that he was not ‘ethnically English’. “Do you mean because of the colour of my skin?”, he asked. “No”, Tebbit replied, seemingly forgetting that he had already defined himself as not ‘ethnically English, “you are not English, but we are both British.”

So, the question clearly has to be, what happens to Darcus and all of his kindred if Britain disappears, as it may very well do anytime within the next fifty years? I’m going to hold off on giving an answer here for a bit, though you might already have arrived at your own.

To a large extent Howe was in pursuit of a chimera, something that even he did not fully understand, something he had not really attempted to define. For example, he thought that a ploughman’s lunch- which he could not track down amidst the curries and burgers- was an example of ‘traditional English fare’, whereas in truth it’s a pure marketing invention, traceable back only to the 1950s. But what about his assertion that England was full of people who don’t want to be English anymore, that we have turned into the cappuccino race, rootless and impossibly cosmopolitan? The short answer is that it’s rubbish.

The thing is the English, the English race, if you prefer, though that’s that seems to me to be an expression devoid of all meaning, has been made up of successive waves of migrants, ancient and modern. My own ancestors are Norman French, though I’m English through and through, ancestry being no more than a distant echo. Yes, there is a vagueness about our national identity, certainly in contrast with more recent migrants, who still carry an attachment to foreign places. But I’m going to go so far as to say that to be vague is to be quintessentially English, to be vague and to be slightly eccentric, beyond the comprehension of outsiders.

I have no idea at all what it means to be British; I know exactly what it is to be English, to belong to my England. Here is a passage from an essay I wrote dedicated to the question what England means to me;

Britishness? Ah, yes, now there is a problem. I grew up believing simply that Britishness and Englishness were more or less the same thing though I was very well aware that the Celtic nations had a separate and somewhat prickly identity. It’s been their assertiveness, their determination to be ‘themselves’, to govern themselves, that resulted in our present botched constitutional settlement, one that has really forced me to focus more specifically on simple Englishness. I no longer use British to identify myself other than to say that I have a British passport.

Yes, I’m not British; I’m English. I cycle from my rooms to college most days. I go riding just about every Sunday along old bridal paths. I like gymkhanas and country pursuits in general. I go hunting in season. I have a passion for the history of my country, particularly for the England of the seventeenth century, which has done so much to confirm my belief in the importance of monarchy in our constitution. I enjoy such food as roast beef - though I have a preference for venison -, fresh salmon, scones with high tea and stodgy puddings. I like to be taken punting on the Cam on warm spring days. I like May balls and daffodils. I like strawberries and cream at Wimbledon. I love the plays of William Shakespeare, the poetry of John Donne and the novels of Charles Dickens. I like Tudor and Stuart dance music and the orchestral work of Frederick Delius, particularly Brigg Fair and In a Summer Garden. I like old churches and ruined castles. I have a tremendous affection for the Church of England and an even greater affection for old English folkways. I like Christmas carols, the more traditional the better. I distrust alien ideologies, like socialism, communism and scientology, any form of fanaticism, really, in politics or religion. I distrust political enthusiasm and hero worship. Or if I do like heroes it's historic fatties like Sir John Falstaff or Horace Rumpole! I dislike American spellings of English English words. I like to go to Henley for the regatta and I far prefer tea, English Breakfast, to be precise, to cappuccino!

So, this is my England, this is my nation. It may not be yours but we all have our own vision and our own sense of place, where even things like line dancing will be welcome! For that’s the best thing of all about being English – our power to adapt, to turn foreign influences to our own ends.

There will always be an England, even if Britain goes, an England where the descendents of Darcus Howe will be welcome, because Norman Tebbit is wrong: it’s not about ethnicity, or colour, or race, or class, or state – it’s an attitude of mind.

This England never did, nor never shall,
Lie at the proud foot of a conqueror,
But when it first did help to wound itself.
Now these her princes are come home again,
Come the three corners of the world in arms,
And we shall shock them. Nought shall make us rue,
If England to itself do rest but true.







Monday, 25 May 2009

My Numeric Vibration

This is it, worked out with the most amazing insight and industry by a wonderful friend of mine!


Anastasia... I will begin with the year - 1986 - Year of the Tiger - Yang (masculine)
Ever and always the huntress you are. Hungry for anything that pleases you, you pursue relentlessly until you have your "kill".

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The Equation of You:

This is going to be a tad lengthy, so I will leave off the mathematics of it all... Shall we begin?

Full name expression = 9
Generally 9s possess a soft heart and a pleasant personality. However the opposite is equally true and of equal importance to be mindful of. Your pet peeve is people who do not finish what they start (among other favorite pet peeves of yours... and that is most likely an extensive list for you). You enjoy expressing yourself freely and prefer no constraints where that is concerned. You enjoy helping others, provided it is respected and appreciated... and reciprocated as well.

Balance Digit = 3
Artistic and/or musical expressions are highlighted with a 3. Where balance is concerned, this applies to how you interact with others on a day to day basis. In a nutshell, you just want to be heard. You always have something to offer in the way of a verbal reply to just about anything. This most likely found you in the hot water many a time.

Soul Urge = 10
You prefer to be first in all things that you do. You pull ahead of others around with ease. You prefer to be perceived by others as a Leader, not a follower.

Quiet Self = 8
You desire a perpetual state of self sufficiency to an extreme... most likely a strong desire to be self employed, or at least at the very top of it all. You do not take direction well as you prefer to give it. Punctual, pragmatic, practical and a perfectionist... you practically demand the same of others.

Path of Life = 6
You value your partnerships highly and have many connections. You prefer it all revolve around you as you direct. Your home is most likely neat and organized, with everything having it's place (and you are usually the first to notice when things are out of place).

Underlying Path = 2
Learn that you are not the center, even though it is a position you prefer, it is we who revolve around Life, not the reverse.

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The Full Equation Inclusion Perspective:

1.) there are 11 of these (1s) present, indicative of a dramatically elevated self esteem as well as a strong set of desires and ambitions, likes and dislikes. Not being the most patient person, you tend towards pushing the slow pokes out of your way if they obstruct your goal. You have a talent for both the written as well as the spoken word.

2.) There are 6 of these present. You play well with others... especially if they take your direction well. You will cooperate if you have a common goal which provides gains for the group as whole. Your focus on solidarity sometimes gets in the way of this. (This is where the statement "does not play well with others" suits you).You are an adept arbitrator, and others seek your counsel for this reason.

3.) There are 5 of these present. You love to speak and to sing. Anything vocal, you love. Also you possess a propensity for music and art. You believe in rapid expansion as you lack the patience for most of the waiting involved with acquisition.

4.) There are 2 of these present. You prefer play over work, any day and any time. However, where work is concerned, you can tend towards overtaxing yourself to meet an objective. You have no fear of hard work, you simply prefer to delegate the responsibility to others. You are a very physical person, preferring activities that require movement as opposed to stagnation.

5.) There are 8 of these present. You love traveling and seeing as well as experiencing new things constantly. You have never been a controlled substance.... although many do try, and fail miserably at this. You strike against control with great force... unless you have something to gain by it. You take advice, but with salt. You prefer to think for yourself, having no fondness for being ordered about.

6.) There are 3 of these present. You are self-responsible... but wants come first for you always. You are a creature of desire, and that is your dominant priority.

7.) There are 2 of these present. You tend to overtax physical and mental energies. You tend towards the basic self-abuses... moderation would indeed be the wise choice in all things. You are knowledgeable and wise beyond your years, but prefer to use that only where it draws the most benefit for you (the phrase "do not waste my time on your stupidity" fits here for you).

8.) There are 2 of these present. You have voracious spending appetites. You love to shop and to buy beautiful things for yourself as well as for others. You flavor everything with your own personal touch in that regard. You should learn the art of frugality, as it is the simple pleasures in life that are truly priceless. You are ambitious, and will always find what you seek, knocking down those in your way if necessary. You prefer to be on top of everything you do... and this includes men (did I say that out loud? LOL)

9.) There are 3 of these present. You tend to bottle things, but only long enough to allow just enough pressure to create the explosions you love so much. You frustrate easily and you tend to let that out relatively soon (refer to the prior statement regarding explosions). You have a compassionate heart, but you prefer your graces to be earned, giving nothing away freely to those who would abuse it.

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Your Dominant Ruling Passions ...in order of strength of vibration:
1.) Self above others... to an extreme
5.) Personal freedoms to do as you please, when you please, with whom you please (or are pleased by... out loud again grr).
2.) Associations with others you value, respect, and work well with. Everyone else just gets in your way unless they have something useful, constructive, or otherwise beneficial to offer.

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Reality Digit (what you are here to learn in this life):

6.) Responsible on a greater scale, domesticity, partnerships (personal and professional).

Underlying Reality ...what lies beneath:
2.) Learn to "play well with others", and learn to trust your intuition within those associations.

Responsibility and Association go hand in hand. Make a note of the fact that your Path and Underlying Path match Identically your Reality and Underlying Reality... is someone trying to tell you something?


I do hope you found this analysis Useful and Accurate.

My Elemental


I’m Cancer, a water sign, so I would have assumed that my elemental would have been a nymph or an ondine, but it’s not, oh, no, it’s not. I seem to be possessed by a spirit of fire, a salamander. I burn up in every sense, intellectually, emotionally and sexually. I simply can’t rest or stay still. There is sometimes water enough to quench the passion, but mostly it just burns free and unrestrained.